family party!

every year my mom throws the halloween party.
its a pretty big deal,
at least i like to think.
every year has a theme, and this year was spy/black-out/mission impossible:
ghost protocol.
i assume everyone had a
wonder-marvel-tastic time!!!
i love my family!!!

heres a few pics-

 yummy delectables!

 this was one of my favorite costumes: Darth Vader, on Vacation!! haha!

 cutest storm trooper!!

 Aunt Erika, and her darling youngest, baby Ashley!

 rock on guys!!! small little punk rocker, and bass player from the band RUSH

 the newly wed super heros

black-out spies, and egyptian

 my favorite picture from the night

all the black-out spies...and a few others awesome party-go-ers (opposed to the lame party-go-ers.((family joke)) )!

Woosh.

i am going to get on my little soapbox and say....

it just hit me.

i watched bridesmaids.

(not for the first time, just clarifying)

laughed my bottom off. (like before, just clarifying)

but realized something.

                  

it got me thinking,

seeing that one chick freak out

seeing her best friend get married.

her best friend walks to the car,

a married woman now,

and says bye.

now, something that you should know about me,

(if you dont know already)

is that

i. love. weddings.

yeppp.

so i talk about our (meaning my best friends)

weddings, pretty much a lot.

i always thought of it as something so exciting and beautiful and great and fancy and fun!!!

....but i never considered the thought of

what happens on the night of a best friends wedding

and i watch her walk out to the car,

with her HUSBAND.

and i watch her leave.

and i think,

shes married now.

no more sleepovers (unless he goes out of town)

no more clubbing and flirting (which she wont want to do anyway)

no more bachelorette time (she is single no more)

no more laughing about future marriage scenarios (because its not the future anymore)

we wont be girls anymore (shes a grown up woman!)

she is a wife

which is okay because we can still...

go shopping together (because HE wont want to get dragged all over the mall)

have girls nights (because SHE will want a break from the kids once in a while)

joking about husbands (because we can laugh at all the now real life experiences)

laughing about "being a wife" (and all of those 'wife-ly duties')

.........i guess it wont change a thing, other than

they will be happy together and we'll live farther away

and we're just bigger girls with busier lives.

I AM JUST SAYING:

we are so young.

and i want to freeze time,

and i just want to be able to play and stay young forever,

and fly to neverland or take some kind of de-aging medicine! 

i dont want my youth to whisk away suddenly!!!

so i wont let it.

ill cherish every moment.

i am just so glad this thought didnt occur to me later,

when i am seeing my best friend,

walk away with her new best friend.

"uhh... peace out. call me when you and him arent too busy with your life, and we can plan a girls day. and ill call you when i am married, so we can have couple charades night." bahaa.


ps.... this post was indeed written with these girls in mind; eliza martin, makelle heisa, and kristen andrew. <3

Flashback

halloween, back on 2010 and now onto 2011

halloween night last year. i actually had nothing planned for halloween night. i had been invited to a house party by my neighbor, but was skeptical on going because makelle was working, eliza is in idaho, and my roommate at the time didnt want to go anywhere that night. i also love to dress up as something different every chance i get to, so i had also dressed as a ballerina and witch at a few other parties. this party was so fun, a lot of work went into it! they had fortune telling, stuffed 'scary' animals, bones from humans, good food, a spooked out seller, amazing decorations galore, and an awesome dance party. that night i decided to throw on my metalic leggings (which you cannot see in this picture) and a tin man hat and wear my heart necklace, so i was the 'tin man.' my friend judy was there when i got there, and they were making me take a picture all by myself, (because i went alone) and she decided to be a great friend and hop in the pic too. and last second this kid that i dont know his name. now judy is married! congrats judy!!!

how time flies.

this picture seems to have a lot less going on than the other, but 2011 was a great year too. i was also a spy for my mom's party, and i will post about that later. this is makelle and i, and i love this picture, because its still us, but in costume. (obviously.) but i think it seems a lot like us even though we are disguised, we are always having a blast together, no matter what were doing. i have known this girl for 14 years!! can you believe it?? notice the gold and red lipstick, my favorite. halloween was fantastic because we spent it with the people we cared about!!!

a year ago i had no idea that:
i could do what ever i put my mind to (:  

a year ago i was different because:
i didnt really know what i truely wanted, and there were certain people (not included in these halloween photos) that were distracting me.

i am glad that:
i made the friends that i did, and i dont have to put up with the ones im not talking to anymore (that sounds negative, but my life is so much better!!)

scar

does anyone else see that???

so, i accquired this lovely scar in the first grade.

it was winter, and i was late to school.
it was cold, and my hands were in my coat pockets, and there is a cement barrier about a foot tall, around the first grade playground.
see where this is going? so, trying to hurry to class so i wouldnt be late, i cut through the play ground, stepping over the cement barrier.
my one foot slipped that was already over the barrier, and i fell on my face, being that my hands were still stuck in my pockets, i could not catch my fall.
i remember it stinging really bad and it was a really cold day.
i remember crying a lot and thinking, this is gonna scar.
silly as a first grader- worrying about scars!

anyway, the point of bringing up this story is that my scar has been long forgotten, and hardly visible anymore.

but just today, i noticed it again! i was on the book of face (fb) and was on my page full of my profile pictures.

once i noticed the scar in this picture, and then i looked at all my other pictures and i could see my scar in every one!!!

its like getting a scar all over again, noticing it today.

but, on the contrary, for some reason i like this scar.

do you have any rad scar stories??

(hopefully a lot more cool-er than mine)

FLASHBACK

i am going to start trying a new thing, called flashback.
i know, i know, i always do these type of things and then stop doing them after a while.
but i want to try and keep this one going.

what i will do is post a picture a year from now,
as well as a picture from the same time, but this year.
mainly just huge events.
and ill do a reflection about it.
ill try to be positive when blogging about it,
with relationships and why things are different.

i think its good to look back, if its in a good sense.
its good to look back at fun memories,
lessons learned, friends that might not be around anymore,
and thinking how far i have come since then.

so, i will do my first flashback, as well as showing an example of what they will be like.

i will start with my birthday, because it was a little recent but not too far back.

FLASHBACK
my birthday, back on 2010 and now onto 2011
august 27th

this is my birthday 2010. i turned eighteen. it rained, like it does every birthday. (if you look real close at the window, you can see the rain drops.) which i love. my mom gave me dishes and stemless wine glasses and silverware, since she was kicking me out the next day. i was so young but i thought i was so mature... moving out makes you 10x more adult-like and you learn sooo much. the dishes matched my red kitchen i was about to have. my cake was red velvet. i remember that birthday was the first birthday i didn't wake up to presents on the table. every morning since i can remember i would wake up and come downstairs to presents on the table. but that year i woke up and everyone said "happy birthday" on their way out to school/work. i spent the day taking care of post-moving stuff and took a long nap. then i woke up and this was all out. and some random friend of my sister's met was there, so that was kinda awkward. i think this was the least favorite birthday i have ever had.

this was my nineteenth birthday, 2011. one of my favorite birthdays. it rained once again, i told you it rains every birthday.
 makelle really did a lot of work to make it special- with a three layer strawberry, chocolate and lemon cake, with home-made icing. phillip hodgman also took me to melting pot, which was delicious and so fun. the whole weekend was a party acutally. i posted about it back in august, but i really felt loved and i got to spend it with the people i love the most. i will always remember this birthday (:

a year ago i had no idea that:
i would be so happy with life, even though its not what i had planned on the status i am in.

a year ago i was different because:
my mentallity was so different, my outlook on life was completely oblivious.

i am glad that:
i am definately not still where i was a year ago, in a sense of living, i definately have more closet space now (;